Insomniac.

rest - noun

1.	the refreshing quiet or repose of sleep: a good night's rest.

2.	refreshing ease or inactivity after exertion or labor: to allow an hour for rest.

3.	relief or freedom, esp. from anything that wearies, troubles, or disturbs.

4.	a period or interval of inactivity, repose, solitude, or tranquillity: to go away for a rest.

5.	mental or spiritual calm; tranquillity.

6.	the repose of death: eternal rest.

7.	cessation or absence of motion: to bring a machine to rest.

I spent last night staring at a ceiling...for hours. Turned out the lights at 11...pretty sure my eyes didn't close the first time until about 2:00. Three hours later, wide awake for another 30-45 minutes. If I'm being completely honest, I find this sleeplessness more annoying than anything else. If you haven't already read the little blurb on the left side of this blog...you should.

For years I have looked to sleep, this time of rest, as my hideaway. How easy to escape the pressures and terrors of this world by simply shutting down for a period of time. Yet the mind wanders, even in sleep - it is not a true escape...reality is still there. Every day would consist of waking up, fighting through the day, and finally "resting" in sleep. Not life at all.

Perhaps my attention needs to be redirected to my true Escape.
In the words of Relient K:

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I’ve gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I’ve gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging
You to be my escape.

I stumbled across the following verses in Proverbs 3:

My son, preserve sound judgment and discernment,
do not let them out of your sight;

²² they will be life for you,
an ornament to grace your neck.

²³ Then you will go on your way in safety,
and your foot will not stumble;

²⁴ when you lie down, you will not be afraid;
when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet.

²⁵ Have no fear of sudden disaster
or of the ruin that overtakes the wicked,

²⁶ for the LORD will be your confidence
and will keep your foot from being snared.

Sweet sleep...that's what I'm looking forward to. Sleep can no longer be my confidence - the LORD must. Yes, sleep is important - our bodies were created to need rest. However, not every form of rest will come from sleep.

And yes, these have been the ramblings of a sleep deprived person. :)
And even as I lie awake, staring at the ceiling, my God is there. Bringing me the rest I need, rest in Him, rest in my Saviour's arms.