Well, That's Embarrassing!

This week has been a busy one! Tuesday - Thursday I was at the Territorial Social Services Conference. There I attended different workshops like "Immigration 101," "Cultural Competency," "Working with Challenging Children," and "Recovery Models in Behavioural Health." I really enjoyed my time there and learned a great deal.

Friday-Sunday (Today) were spent involving my beautiful cousin Sarah (now) Dawson's wedding. Friday was the rehearsal, Saturday the wedding, Sunday the traveling.

All in all it was a wonderful week. I had the privilege of officiating for Sarah's wedding. She looked so beautiful. :)

However, there was one downer. I saw a side of myself come out that I haven't seen in quite some time. I don't know why my nerves were so high, but I could not get them under control this weekend. The result was a short fuse, a temper, and unkindness shown especially to my siblings and mother. How very embarrassing. As we rode in the car to and from Clinton I kept thinking to myself, "Aubrey Ann, what in the world were you doing?!". Pieces of me were shown that I don't want to even exist within myself: an immaturity, pride, a flippant attitude...the list goes on. The worst was that my family had to witness such gross behaviour.

God, please forgive me for behaviours, thoughts, and actions that did not glorify You. Forgive me for the way I treated my family. And God, make me new again. You are faithful and just. I trust in You.

"God of Elijah, hear our spirits cry; to make us fit for You to live or die, to burn up every trace of sin, to let the light and glory in. Lord, let the glorious revolution now begin. Send the fire! Send the fire, O Lord, to magnify Your name, to never be the same. We need Your holy flame; send the fire!" - trans:Missions adaptation of "Send the Fire"

Random

Oh my, I haven't posted in a bit!

Here are some entirely random thoughts/schedule bits:

1 week until Territorial Social Services Conferences.
10 days until my beautiful cousin, Sarah, gets married.
2 weeks until Divisional Business Seminar.
20 days until SACEP (+ I get to see the best friend - Chrissy).

My mind has been swimming with the events of the news in the recent hours, days, and weeks. I do not know how to process them all. I can become lost in my thoughts if I am not careful.

Yet Lord, through all of the days, may my heart focus Heavenward. May I not allow myself to be swept up in the sensationalism of this world. May I always remember who I am and Whose I am.

William Booth, the founder of The Salvation Army, once wrote the following:
"For Thy sake I once more separate myself from the world, from its amusements, from its friendships, from its fashions, from its sins-and here and now in the presence of my General and of my comrades I promise that , as a Salvation Army officer, I will follow Thee with all my heart."

"Search me and know my heart, O God. Test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me and lead me in the road everlasting." Psalm 139:23-24